Monday, January 4, 2010


* So, I've been thinking. Usually, I'm not one for New Year's resolutions. But, I might make an exception this year: it's time for the big girl panties. I'm comfortable with this because it's general enough to cover one thing or many things that I need to change or work on. For example, I also have a To-Do list for the next twelve months.

1. Get a car
2. Wean Malachi... I think a whole year is plenty of time for this, right? ;-)
3. Go to school and/or figure out a better way to provide for myself and Malachi.
4. Learn ASL.
5. Who wants to join me??

* Lately, I have been feeling very discouraged and morose. Yesterday, at church, they had prayer for anyone feeling especially down over the last couple months and after a few minutes of trying to convince myself that all is peachy- I shuffled to the front where I cried and cried. I'm talking black-tear-streaks-of-sweet-relief. A good cry every now and then helps, a great deal. When said cry is wrapped in the comforting arms of The One who will never leave you or forsake you? It's beyond words. I feel a world of difference.

* Which sorta leads me to number 6. of my list: quit making excuses for not diving in head-first. I blogged last year about my wanting to make a resolution of praying I failed. So, this time, I'm not going to put a specific time requirement on it. I'm just going to purpose in my heart to be a serious lover of Jesus. It's so easy to "play" Christian and pretend that your walk is exactly where it needs to be-- but I want to be real. Am I perfect? Do I struggle? More than I let on. Is that the very reason I need to be closer to Jesus more than ever? YUP.

* After all... "faith that costs little will accomplish little." Good word, Pastor Rick!

* I've been compiling a list of "awesomely-bad" break up songs. They surely do help get my angst out: Never Again, Gives You Hell, So What, Already Gone, White Horse, Fighter, Take A Bow, I Do Not Hook Up, Irreplaceable. Psssst, if you know of any other good ones, share!

* I just realized that my dad's computer has a webcam. Skype, anyone??!
*My home-town newspaper has a little section dedicated to people who like to gripe to each other: it's called Miscellany II and it's so much fun to read. This is my favorite submission of the week:

"To those who try to invoke it: Karma is not real. It is not a god. Don't you know that it rains on the just and the unjust?"
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Lover of your BLOG! said...

How about....'NOT MEANT TO BE' by Theory of a Deadman?

Keep on praying...daily!

kelly said...

I s'pose if you are going to Greece, you should wean the boy, but if you realistically cant go to Greece, hang on to him with every thing you have!

Anonymous said...

is Mal still boobing it! WOW! I admire you....keep up the fab bloggin ladies!

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