♥I don't feeel like blogging...

... but I'm making myself do it anyway. Remember those big girl panties I spoke of? They're on. Apparently.

I don't feel like praying, either. But, I'm making myself do that, too. In times like these, it's the perseverance and pushing that makes things happen. When a woman is giving birth, she doesn't just lay there and say, "I don't feeeel like it." She has to push her way through and keep at it until the end comes. Coincidentally enough, the end is glorious. That's what I'm holding out for. That's what I'm forcing myself to keep at it for. It would be oh so easy to roll over and give up- I'm not going to.

I also don't feel like going to school. I'm going to anyway. My son needs a mama who will do anything for him. School will be that anything.

Without darkness we would never see the stars right? That's what I'm going to keep telling myself. Also, I'm going to read Hebrews. I've had a nagging thought: "What if that mustard seed of faith requirement feels more like an elephant size requirement?" The thing is, my dad reminds me, that Jesus did not admonish his disciples for little faith, He admonished them for applying their faith very little. Ahhh. Hebrews is the book in the Bible that addresses faith directly and teaches how to apply it. Handy, I'd say. Perhaps Harry shall wait a little while.

Also, have you seen the size of a mustard tree? They're quite big, from what I can tell. Anyway, something to think about.

Hebrews 3:6, "But Christ (the Messiah) was faithful over His own Father's house as a Son and Master of it. And it is we who are now members of this house, if we hold fast and firm to the end our joyful and exultant confidence and sense of triumph in our hope in Christ."