♫ Clear the Mechanism

I love that movie. You know, that baseball movie with Kevin Costner acting all studly. Something about the way I was raised always has me taking a second look at Kevin in a baseball uniform. He’s good at it, what can I say?

Clear the Mechanism. That creepy voice says that right before he pitches the ball. It makes all the noise surrounding him disappear long enough to focus on the task at hand.

I realized today, I need some of that. Unfortunately, I cant find anybody with a creepy voice to follow me around all day. So, in effort to figure it out myself, I am taking a half day of work, and clearing the mechanism by leaving my kids with the sitter for a few hours, and just chillin’. With myself, and whomever wants to come along.

It’s been a rough two weeks, to be quite honest. It’s taken everything in me not to be extremely dramatic on Facebook. *wink* waves at the drama queens that hate me and my blog for that post.

Really though, I feel like I’m leaning, and leaning hard, on a lot of people. Thank you friends, for sticking with me, even when all you hear is whine, whine, whine.

So, cheers to you, friends. For sticking with me while I did a bit of soul sucking myself. You know, I don’t think I’ve blogged about that yet. Let’s go there.

So I have this friend. We will refer to her as Soul Charger from here on through today. She has a theory, that she shared with me once. She said (not verbatim, mind you), we surround ourselves by a variety of people-naturally. Generally, every group-especially girls it seems-has a Soul Sucker. You know, the girl that takes actual energy, just to stand by. Then, when her life is actually off kilt, yours is too. It’s generally her way, or the highway. When you’re done spending time with this Soul Sucker, your soul is heavy. You are worn out. It takes work to stick with it. Lucky me, I have a balance. I have a Soul Sucker and an amazing Soul Charger to keep me going. I am very close to both of them, attached to both of them, and love them both so big. They are what they are. I think sometimes, we go through phases of being both.

So, there’s the theory. And now you know what I mean by sucking and charging of the soul.

My apologies for being a bit of a SS these last few weeks. Once again, life is looking up.

Yours Truly,

Nomz