** Borderline Personality Disorder

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Borderline personality disorder can be a distressing medical condition, both for the people who have it and for those around them. When you have borderline personality disorder (BPD), you have difficulty controlling your emotions and are often in a state of upheaval — perhaps as a result of harmful childhood experiences or brain dysfunction.

With borderline personality disorder your image of yourself is distorted, making you feel worthless and fundamentally flawed. Your anger, impulsivity and frequent mood swings may push others away, even though you yearn for loving relationships.

Increasing awareness and research are helping improve the treatment and understanding of borderline personality disorder. Emerging evidence indicates that people with borderline personality disorder often get better over time and that they can live happy, peaceful lives.


The first time I heard this phrase I had to do the eye roll. I thought to myself, what's that it sounds so vile. Only to find out 2 years later I would have first hand experience with a woman who had this disorder. She made me believe her lies. She made me think that everyone pretty much lied to me and she was the only one who was telling the truth. This women put me through hell for almost a year. I was trapped inside my mind wondering if I should tell someone what she had fed my brain. What an dreadful action she did when I was pregnant. I finally had enough of the mind games and I told my husband. He has helped me through this tough time of growth and healing. I still have times where I blame myself for her wrong doing and why her life has suddenly become so damaged. I haven't talked to her since I let her lies come known. If you feel like you have been a victim of someone who has borderline personality disorder I strongly suggest reading up on it or talk to a therapist. It's a hard battle but so worth it to let go of the all the hurt and blame.


Symptoms
By Mayo Clinic staff
Borderline personality disorder affects how you feel about yourself, how you relate to others and how you behave.

When you have BPD, you often have an insecure sense of who you are. That is, your self-image or sense of self often rapidly changes. You may view yourself as evil or bad, and sometimes may feel as if you don't exist at all. An unstable self-image often leads to frequent changes in jobs, friendships, goals, values and gender identity.

Your relationships are usually in turmoil. You often experience a love-hate relationship with others. You may idealize someone one moment and then abruptly and dramatically shift to fury and hate over perceived slights or even minor misunderstandings. This is because people with the disorder have difficulty accepting gray areas — things are either black or white. For instance, in the eyes of a person with BPD, someone is either good or evil. And that same person may seem good one day and evil the next.

Other signs and symptoms of borderline personality disorder may include:

Impulsive and risky behavior, such as risky driving, unsafe sex, gambling sprees or taking illicit drugs
Strong emotions that wax and wane frequently
Intense but short episodes of anxiety or depression
Inappropriate anger, sometimes escalating into physical confrontations
Difficulty controlling emotions or impulses
Suicidal behavior
Fear of being alone

Here are a couple of books:

Stop Walking on Eggshells

Get me Out of Here: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder


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