Monday, July 20, 2009

**Consuming Me…24 hours a day….

A letter from a Ghost Blogger:

Consuming me…24 hours a day….

Have you ever wanted or ‘desired’ something desperately? So much so, that it never leaves your mind, never leaves your heart…consumes you 24 hours per day, 7 days a week, 365 days per year? Well…I want and desire ‘something’ so bad that it might just drive me crazy if I don’t get it…
From Wikipedia…”Desire - is a sense of longing for a person or object or hoping for an outcome. When a person desires something or someone, their sense of longing is excited by the enjoyment or the thought of the item or person, and they want to take actions to obtain their goal.”
I am truly a patient person and of course I usually get what I want, when I want it and how I want it. Maybe I’m a spoiled brat because of this…but… oh well! I have wanted this ‘something’ for a long time and recently my brain decided that I REALLY, REALLY WANT this something. Unfortunately, what I want (or desire) is out of my control, totally and completely….end of story. I don’t know why this ‘something’ is consuming my world like it is…I’ve never let any want or desire overwhelm me like this has…I’m trying very hard to distract myself from this ‘something’, so I don’t weaken my normally strong persona.
I might just compare what I want or desire, to an ice cream cone…
I love ice cream! Don’t we all? There are so many flavors of ice cream out there to pick from. My favorite flavor of ice cream is licorice (not everyone’s favorite…but I’m different and weird, I admit it!). And, I must eat my ice cream in a waffle cone or not eat it at all.
So, now summer is in full swing and I want that ice cream (in my waffle cone!) to help me cool down in the afternoons or evenings. But, for some reason, I’m not allowed to have that particular ice cream flavor, ever, due to an ‘allergy’ (we will call it that). This makes my desire grow stronger every day I’m not allowed to have my favorite ice cream. I watch others order their favorite flavors of ice cream, enjoying every cold minute, licking the delicious flavor, inch by inch, watching it drip down their hands, never complaining because they are totally satisfied. ‘An ice cream cone a day, would make the heart and mind satisfied…forever’…has always been my motto.
There is no alternative to my ice cream ‘desire’…none whatsoever. Licorice is my favorite flavor and if I can’t have it (which I can’t because of my ‘allergy’), I don’t want or desire anything else in this world that is so very sweet and satisfying like Licorice ice cream.
Soooooo, how do I get over this ‘allergy’ so I can have my ice cream? Or how do I make this want (or desire) go away…it’s so very strong, so intense, so true and consuming me completely right now. I love Licorice ice cream more than anything in the world…I would do anything to have my ice cream, every single day of the rest of my life.

**Ghost Blogger

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

No offense to the ghost blogger, but isn't the idea of "ghost blogging" so that you can tell what you need to say anonymously?

from that, the only thing i got was that some people, somewhere, might like ice cream. Desperately.

I want to know what it is, and get to the point sooner. The rambling and vagueness of the entry should be edited by Naomi and Sarah. To be honest, I wont read this blog any more if they aren't more substantive... please? Help it out and fix this?

Anonymous said...

Sometimes a blog like this helps a person (such as the ghost writer) share their thoughts and feelings that are 'consuming their lives' so 'desperately'...without revealing too much. Maybe the ghost writer is afraid to say too much...in fear that it might backfire.

To me, it sounds like the ghost writer is truly in LOVE with someone that she can't ever have...which brings a tear to my eyes personally.

Sazaran said...

Ahem. We started this blog so that anyone can vent or share their feelings in any way. What's with the negative critique and the threat of never reading again?! WHO CARE IF YOU DON'T READ?! Let this darling girl/boy share her/his feelings in a way that make her/him feel as if they're still anonymous. Perhaps if they let actual details slide, another reader would know what they're talking about.

So, our dear ghost blogger, you just keep on giving us your abstract and slightly mysterious blogs and we'll keep posting them. It's what we're here for.

Daily Offensive (baha!) said...

What Sarah said.

We love our readers, especially those that are so dedicated that you know our real names. We also love that you took the time to share your feelings with us.

Sarah couldnt have spilled our sentiments any better.

Nomz

Ghost Writer said...

Thank you Sarazan and Nomz!

Anonymous said...

I gotta agree with the first commenter on here, gals. The ice cream metaphor is totally overdone, and loses effectiveness towards the end. I finished reading, and was totally confused.

Linda in Cody said...

I don't agree with a few of you...I think #1 and #6 are just being a bit 'snoopy' and want to now the juicy details that might be behind the melting licorice ice cream.

I for one...understand the blog and yes it has left me a bit curious...but that may be a future blog down the road by this ghost blogger if he/she is not discouraged by your comments.

Anonymous said...

As Sarazan and Nomz point out, the blog is for people to state their opinions, let out their feelings, etc. Even if those feelings are that a ghost blogger could use some clarification... those feelings and opinions are still honored. It's not about being nosy--I could care less what this person actually desires--it's about writing concise, clear blogs. With that said, I have no ill intent on the ghost blogger or the blog in question... just saying that everyone, even the critics, have a right to state an opinion. As do you. And so here we are :)

Anonymous said...

I loved this blog. for many of us it has different meanings. And I for one like that sort of thing that makes sit back and say hmmm
cindy

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