Monday, June 29, 2009

♫ Because My Give A Hoot's Broken

Do you ever feel like people are standing in line, waiting for you to fall? That maybe, some people seek out interest in your life, because they need something to talk about? It seems, when our own self doubts or consciences attack us, we find a way to find faults in somebody else.

I have to say, recently, I’ve been that girl. I’ve been the one backed in to a corner. Talked about. Called, just to get something to talk about. Not a genuine call, but one that gives them something to take further. To be honest, I let it get to me.

Funny how things change.

I’ve come a long, long way, in the last oh...three or four years. Thanks to some big mistakes, some great friends, and some awesome ex-friends, I’ve been down quite the road. I realized, that the more you burry yourself in other people’s lives, and feelings, the quicker you lose track of yourself, and your own mistakes. You’ve got to be honest with yourself, before you have any right to be honest to anybody else.

Thanks to time constraints, the clock is helping me bite my tongue. I’ll leave you with two awesome quotes*. They should make you smile. They aren’t to be taken so much literally, but to plant a little bit of thought about what you are made of:

"....Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit."

"Being a bitch, means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that.

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch , so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it."

Happy Monday!

Yours Truly,
Nomz

*Disclaimer: The language above may be offensive. Feel free to insert "brat" wherever necessary.

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

You go girl! Been there, done that! I am so much the 'bitch' in my family as well, because it IS all about ME and not what my family 'wants me to be' or 'wants me to do'.

I could have written this blog for you today! :)

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